Introspection

I want to be friends with everybody even the people I don't respect I want to understand everyone as having a soul I want the empathy and respect of the good apples and the bad apples

It's probably the reason I can't hold a grudge against assholes the second they're nice to me again I want to pretend they're nice people 

Or if people are friendly and want to hang I want to yes even though we don't share the same values and well never be friends longterm 

My time is valuable I need to find people of my intellectual level instead of trying to ingratiate myself with everyone else 

It's not high school middle school college anymore it's not enough to spend a shitload of time together a friendship that does not equate