Jewelry Wish List

1. a finn jewelry puff heart
2. a alison lou crybaby pendant
3. a marla aaron super tiny baby lock
4. a marla aaron cuffling in blush

Natural Beauty

1. W3LL people highlighter
2. W3LL people liquid eye liner
3. W3LL people cheek tint
4. W3ll people tinted balm


1. Beautycounter brow pencil
2. Beautycounter mascara


1. Maia mascara
2. Maia brow pencil

Facial Oils

1. Jojoba Oil
2. True Botanicals Clear Oil
3. Ila-spa Face Oil
4. Herbivore Botanicals Lapis Facial Oil
5. Korres Wild Rose Brightening Oil
6. Argan Oil
7. Drunk Elephant Virgin Marula Fruit Oil
8. Maya Chia Supercritical Omega 3 Oil
9. Rodin Olio Lusso
10. Sonya Dakar ORGANIC HOYA OMEGA BOOSTER 
11. RMS Beauty Oil

People who've called me fat

In a matter of fact way, not to purposefully hurt me, which is somehow more troubling.  I can't brush them off as if they were a catty middleschooler. Cuz MAYBE THE SPEAKETH THE TRUTH


1. My Mom
2. My host mom in Costa  Rica
3. My Hand her mom
3. My Grandma
4. My Uncle
5. My friend
6. My dad
7. My cousin

I understand the non-western mentality that commenting on someone's weight isn't supposed to be a great insult, it's supposed to be merely an observation not tied to worth.  But somehow it is.  Especially when some of the people live in America and have absorbed western social decorum, they have internalized the ideals that weight is tied to ego. And it is anyways.  Even if we overemphasize how horrible it is to be fat and ugly, it's never your place to comment on anything of someone else unsolicited.  Unsolicited advice is never good.

And so it doesn't come from a place of observation, it comes from a place of busy-bodying.  Sometimes it comes from a place of wanting to comment and fix other people because you're so fucked up inside.  You spew out critiques of other people to scratch your itchy unsettled heart. LOL.


**it says something that I've placed this on my blog that nobody reads but a blog nonetheless.  Why does it have to be on a public space? Am I hoping that a stranger will empathize? A stranger that doesn't know my family so they can't say how horrible they are because even though they've hurt my feelings I don't want other people to judge them.

Jewelry Wish List

From Miansai

From Bittersweets NY

From Iwona Ludyga 

From Scosha

From Jill Platner

Emotional State

Cried after realizing I was 12 minutes too late to order a lobster roll for delivery because they closed at 8.

After a slightly annoying day--the kind with little prickly annoyances that build up, I lost it.

And it was like fuck, how much was a suppressing that missing the deadline for ordering dinner made me break down and cry? Did my fucking boss annoy me that much?

Fuck it was like that time that I  had to deal with asshole customers and I thought my manager saw me yell at a co-worker (who deserved it) and thinking about it the whole time and a manager asking if I was ok and then finally crying when another manager asked me if I was ok.  And I wasn't.  I fucking wasn't.

How can I stop bottling emotions if I don't even know I do it?  Until it's too late?

I am like that magical negro in green mile, but in a bad way, I soak up other people's feelings to things and then react the same way they do.

People to Contact

Marion Fasel

Of A Kind

In Detail

Tiffany & Co.

Man Repeller