Score: 0 for 3
Submitted: Comedy or Tragedy of Pimples
Saturday, October 28, 2017
Rejection Letter No. 6
Rejecter: Atticus Books
Submission: Summer (Poem)
I'm beginning to lose track.
Rejection No. 7,8,9 +but also Acceptance! No. 1, 2
I've already messed up counting because it's getting confusing. From now on I'll count when I can, give or take a few.
Rejections:
7. Seaweed
8. Beethoven
9. Bad Joke Etiquette
Acceptances:
1. Laughing for fear of silence
2. Beethoven
Rejections:
7. Seaweed
8. Beethoven
9. Bad Joke Etiquette
Acceptances:
1. Laughing for fear of silence
2. Beethoven
Jewelry Ideas I Still Need to Make/Photograph
the stragglers
1. Rock Candy Earring
2. Silver Braid Friendship bracelet with red silk thread
3. Grand Candy Ring (Pink and Blue)
Sh*t Kids Say
3 year old: Do you know about flowers?
5 year old: what do you like better, princesses or beds
what do you like better, flowers or cats, what do you like better windows or beds
5 year old: what do you like better, princesses or beds
what do you like better, flowers or cats, what do you like better windows or beds
6 year old: I just love calling you honey!
6 year old: was I pretty good today?
3 year old: I think (2 year old) is going to be our mom...I don't want (2 year old) to be our mom
I Love Chips and Dip
A thick hardy dip scooped up by an equally hardy corn or pita chip. Perfection.
Chips and Salsa
Chips and Guacamole
Chips and Hummus
Chips and Baba Ghanouj
Chips and French Onion Dip
Chips and Sour Cream Dip
Chips and Melted Cheese
Chips and Tzatziki
Chips and Spinach and Artichoke Dip
Just enough to feel like a treat.
Personal Jewelry Word Sketches
they're not original, they're not what I want to sell, but they're dainty little things that remind me of gum ball machines and cereal box prizes and being a Williamsburg to Big Sur transplant you know those ladies with straight brunette hair and striped shirts and a swipe of garnet-red lipstick and lots of houseplants.
1. Bezel Set Garnet Heart gold Ring
2. Bezel Set Diamond Heart gold Ring
3. Bezel Set Blue Tourmaline gold Ring
4 . Paraiba ring in melted gold ball on twisted silver band
5. opal ring in melted gold ball on twisted silver band
3. Rainbow Pave Ring with alternating gold beading
4. Crisp Gold Tag Bracelet
5. Crisp Gold Tag Necklace
6. Round Diamond Set in a melted ball of gold Ring
7. 6 prong Tiny Emerald Ring
8. Coin disc dangle Bracelet
9. Tiny Gold Ring Necklace on platinum chain
10. Tiny puffed heart in gold, platinum, or rose gold
11. Tiny puffed heart in platinum or rose gold paved with diamonds
12. Tiny gold ball station necklace
12. gold ball with chain looped around it bracelet
13. Horizon circle necklace in silver
14. Horizon circle necklace in gold
15. Horizon circle necklace in silver and gold
16. linked gold rings ring
17. completely round thin wire bangle
18. completely square bangle
19. six prong pink diamond ring
20. tiny gold box chain bracelet with a flat heart charm
21. tiny gold curb chain with a gold "seed" station
22. half wire bangle half chain bracelet
23. "baby love" word ring
24. gold flower bracelet
25. gold flower earrings
26. curved ring
27. heart star diamond raindrop moon charm bracelet
28. Gold "pearl" ring
2. Bezel Set Diamond Heart gold Ring
3. Bezel Set Blue Tourmaline gold Ring
4 . Paraiba ring in melted gold ball on twisted silver band
5. opal ring in melted gold ball on twisted silver band
3. Rainbow Pave Ring with alternating gold beading
4. Crisp Gold Tag Bracelet
5. Crisp Gold Tag Necklace
6. Round Diamond Set in a melted ball of gold Ring
7. 6 prong Tiny Emerald Ring
8. Coin disc dangle Bracelet
9. Tiny Gold Ring Necklace on platinum chain
10. Tiny puffed heart in gold, platinum, or rose gold
11. Tiny puffed heart in platinum or rose gold paved with diamonds
16. linked gold rings ring
19. six prong pink diamond ring
20. tiny gold box chain bracelet with a flat heart charm
21. tiny gold curb chain with a gold "seed" station
22. half wire bangle half chain bracelet
23. "baby love" word ring
24. gold flower bracelet
25. gold flower earrings
26. curved ring
27. heart star diamond raindrop moon charm bracelet
28. Gold "pearl" ring
Saturday, June 17, 2017
Shit Kids say
I'm being nice to you
Why did your mom give you the necklace
Because she likes me
Oh
Your mommy loves you and gives you cake
You're such a baby
Look I know how to do this it's a ballerina it's beautiful!
My name is chubby wubby one day I had a fast dad and slow down dad!
Why do we have to be careful with roses because they have eggs
Umm, I do not like chicken
My mom doesn't like chicken she just eats salad
You don't want to share?
You had so many
But I wanted more !
Ok after dinner
No now gimme it now ! Gimme it now ! Throw it up!
Mama has short nails short nails
This baby has a big butt
That is so funny that is really funny
Sent from my iPhone
Tuesday, June 6, 2017
Dream Diary Post
I had another dream about going into space. Except this time without a rocket.
It was under the pretense of a field trip to a shoe store, it looked
like a Payless with tacky orange walls but was only one long hallway.
At the end of the hallway was a door, like those doors to the
stockroom except it was a door to space.
We paired up and when it was our turn suited up in astronaut suits and
jumped out
Sent from my iPhone
It was under the pretense of a field trip to a shoe store, it looked
like a Payless with tacky orange walls but was only one long hallway.
At the end of the hallway was a door, like those doors to the
stockroom except it was a door to space.
We paired up and when it was our turn suited up in astronaut suits and
jumped out
Sent from my iPhone
Friday, November 18, 2016
Jewelry Wish List
1. a finn jewelry puff heart
2. a alison lou crybaby pendant
3. a marla aaron super tiny baby lock
4. a marla aaron cuffling in blush
2. a alison lou crybaby pendant
3. a marla aaron super tiny baby lock
4. a marla aaron cuffling in blush
Tuesday, November 15, 2016
Natural Beauty
1. W3LL people highlighter
2. W3LL people liquid eye liner
3. W3LL people cheek tint
4. W3ll people tinted balm
1. Beautycounter brow pencil
2. Beautycounter mascara
1. Maia mascara
2. Maia brow pencil
2. W3LL people liquid eye liner
3. W3LL people cheek tint
4. W3ll people tinted balm
1. Beautycounter brow pencil
2. Beautycounter mascara
1. Maia mascara
2. Maia brow pencil
Sunday, October 30, 2016
Facial Oils
1. Jojoba Oil
2. True Botanicals Clear Oil
3. Ila-spa Face Oil
4. Herbivore Botanicals Lapis Facial Oil
5. Korres Wild Rose Brightening Oil
6. Argan Oil
7. Drunk Elephant Virgin Marula Fruit Oil
8. Maya Chia Supercritical Omega 3 Oil
9. Rodin Olio Lusso
10. Sonya Dakar ORGANIC HOYA OMEGA BOOSTER
11. RMS Beauty Oil
2. True Botanicals Clear Oil
3. Ila-spa Face Oil
4. Herbivore Botanicals Lapis Facial Oil
5. Korres Wild Rose Brightening Oil
6. Argan Oil
7. Drunk Elephant Virgin Marula Fruit Oil
8. Maya Chia Supercritical Omega 3 Oil
9. Rodin Olio Lusso
10. Sonya Dakar ORGANIC HOYA OMEGA BOOSTER
11. RMS Beauty Oil
Monday, December 21, 2015
People who've called me fat
In a matter of fact way, not to purposefully hurt me, which is somehow more troubling. I can't brush them off as if they were a catty middleschooler. Cuz MAYBE THE SPEAKETH THE TRUTH
1. My Mom
2. My host mom in Costa Rica
3. My Hand her mom
3. My Grandma
4. My Uncle
5. My friend
6. My dad
7. My cousin
I understand the non-western mentality that commenting on someone's weight isn't supposed to be a great insult, it's supposed to be merely an observation not tied to worth. But somehow it is. Especially when some of the people live in America and have absorbed western social decorum, they have internalized the ideals that weight is tied to ego. And it is anyways. Even if we overemphasize how horrible it is to be fat and ugly, it's never your place to comment on anything of someone else unsolicited. Unsolicited advice is never good.
And so it doesn't come from a place of observation, it comes from a place of busy-bodying. Sometimes it comes from a place of wanting to comment and fix other people because you're so fucked up inside. You spew out critiques of other people to scratch your itchy unsettled heart. LOL.
**it says something that I've placed this on my blog that nobody reads but a blog nonetheless. Why does it have to be on a public space? Am I hoping that a stranger will empathize? A stranger that doesn't know my family so they can't say how horrible they are because even though they've hurt my feelings I don't want other people to judge them.
1. My Mom
2. My host mom in Costa Rica
3. My Hand her mom
3. My Grandma
4. My Uncle
5. My friend
6. My dad
7. My cousin
I understand the non-western mentality that commenting on someone's weight isn't supposed to be a great insult, it's supposed to be merely an observation not tied to worth. But somehow it is. Especially when some of the people live in America and have absorbed western social decorum, they have internalized the ideals that weight is tied to ego. And it is anyways. Even if we overemphasize how horrible it is to be fat and ugly, it's never your place to comment on anything of someone else unsolicited. Unsolicited advice is never good.
And so it doesn't come from a place of observation, it comes from a place of busy-bodying. Sometimes it comes from a place of wanting to comment and fix other people because you're so fucked up inside. You spew out critiques of other people to scratch your itchy unsettled heart. LOL.
**it says something that I've placed this on my blog that nobody reads but a blog nonetheless. Why does it have to be on a public space? Am I hoping that a stranger will empathize? A stranger that doesn't know my family so they can't say how horrible they are because even though they've hurt my feelings I don't want other people to judge them.
Sunday, October 4, 2015
Tuesday, June 30, 2015
Emotional State
Cried after realizing I was 12 minutes too late to order a lobster roll for delivery because they closed at 8.
After a slightly annoying day--the kind with little prickly annoyances that build up, I lost it.
And it was like fuck, how much was a suppressing that missing the deadline for ordering dinner made me break down and cry? Did my fucking boss annoy me that much?
Fuck it was like that time that I had to deal with asshole customers and I thought my manager saw me yell at a co-worker (who deserved it) and thinking about it the whole time and a manager asking if I was ok and then finally crying when another manager asked me if I was ok. And I wasn't. I fucking wasn't.
How can I stop bottling emotions if I don't even know I do it? Until it's too late?
I am like that magical negro in green mile, but in a bad way, I soak up other people's feelings to things and then react the same way they do.
After a slightly annoying day--the kind with little prickly annoyances that build up, I lost it.
And it was like fuck, how much was a suppressing that missing the deadline for ordering dinner made me break down and cry? Did my fucking boss annoy me that much?
Fuck it was like that time that I had to deal with asshole customers and I thought my manager saw me yell at a co-worker (who deserved it) and thinking about it the whole time and a manager asking if I was ok and then finally crying when another manager asked me if I was ok. And I wasn't. I fucking wasn't.
How can I stop bottling emotions if I don't even know I do it? Until it's too late?
I am like that magical negro in green mile, but in a bad way, I soak up other people's feelings to things and then react the same way they do.
Sunday, June 14, 2015
Stuff I've Learned
Listening to the Marc Maron Podcast, to Terry Gross, I'm comforted that other people are just as neurotic and over-analytical like me.
But it's so nice to not give a shit about what other people think.
I used to kill myself over goodbyes, how they were never adequate enough to say everything touching and poignant in time. Or if the other person seemed to give an emotionless goodbyes, or they thought I was weird because my goodbye was weird, and I ruined all chances of a friendship because I revealed how weird I am.
I used to feel bad that I wouldn't be invited to things by friends (and family) who thought that it was perfectly nice to talk to me one-on-one, but wasn't cool enough to be seen with in public. But now I'm just like fuck you, you're a piece of shit for using me like that.
I used to be scared that I'd say the wrong opinion, that I hated that movie, that I'm ambivalent about Hilary Clinton's morals, but then I realized that if one strike is three strikes, I lost long before the game started.
I realized, when the door closes, nobody is thinking wow Kristy's really weird. And even if they are, what is the worst thing that can happen? What happens? I kick myself out of a job opportunity? Honestly that's the worst thing that can happen. Though I do think that I'm strong enough that my strengths overpower my weirdness. Mostly. Yeah I still have stuff to work on.
You know what's still awkward though, going in for a hug and then wimping out at the last second.
And obviously, I'm so self-conscious and over-analytical because I'm so hard on everyone else.
But it's so nice to not give a shit about what other people think.
I used to kill myself over goodbyes, how they were never adequate enough to say everything touching and poignant in time. Or if the other person seemed to give an emotionless goodbyes, or they thought I was weird because my goodbye was weird, and I ruined all chances of a friendship because I revealed how weird I am.
I used to feel bad that I wouldn't be invited to things by friends (and family) who thought that it was perfectly nice to talk to me one-on-one, but wasn't cool enough to be seen with in public. But now I'm just like fuck you, you're a piece of shit for using me like that.
I used to be scared that I'd say the wrong opinion, that I hated that movie, that I'm ambivalent about Hilary Clinton's morals, but then I realized that if one strike is three strikes, I lost long before the game started.
I realized, when the door closes, nobody is thinking wow Kristy's really weird. And even if they are, what is the worst thing that can happen? What happens? I kick myself out of a job opportunity? Honestly that's the worst thing that can happen. Though I do think that I'm strong enough that my strengths overpower my weirdness. Mostly. Yeah I still have stuff to work on.
You know what's still awkward though, going in for a hug and then wimping out at the last second.
And obviously, I'm so self-conscious and over-analytical because I'm so hard on everyone else.
Saturday, June 13, 2015
I Don't Fuck With You
Warning, teenage rant ahead.
maybe it's crazy to finally come to this realization at the ripe old age of 24, but I finally have a modicum of self-esteem that I don't care what assholes think about me.
Okay, if I'm being obnoxious, rude, or a downright asshole myself, I will take heed (or I should take heed).
But if you don't like me because of my voice, I'm ugly, I smell, you think I'm dumb, I'm lame, whatever. Fuck you, I don't fuck with you, I don't give a fuck about you. Because if you're asshole enough to voice this opinion to your "friends" you're broken inside. I don't want to deal with you anyway.
And fuck the "friends" that tell me their "friends" don't like me.
I remember there was this one asshole girl (who was a friend, but also mad insecure running her mouth about everyone) who was like I heard some bad things about you Kristy, and they were so mean *fake concerned laugh* they were so mean...
And because I had no self-confidence, it sent my stomach spinning imaging what people are saying about me--the worst things I could think about myself...shit did other people thing it too? Notice it too? Fuck! And so I tried to play it cool but then I nagged her and nagged her trying to guess who it was while she just shook her head like the martyr she pretended to be...I fell right into her trap.
But now, I don't care. I'm short, so what? I'm Asian, so what? I have a high, soft, voice, so what? I'm an awkward weirdo, so what? If I'm trying, or if it's not anything I can change, I don't give a fuck what you think.
That's not to say an insult doesn't sting. Of course my feelings are still hurt if you say any I'm socially awkward, my face messed up. But I'm able to recognize that my feelings are hurt, and let it wash it over me, and know that the insulter is more fucked up than the insultee, and that this too soon shall pass.
maybe it's crazy to finally come to this realization at the ripe old age of 24, but I finally have a modicum of self-esteem that I don't care what assholes think about me.
Okay, if I'm being obnoxious, rude, or a downright asshole myself, I will take heed (or I should take heed).
But if you don't like me because of my voice, I'm ugly, I smell, you think I'm dumb, I'm lame, whatever. Fuck you, I don't fuck with you, I don't give a fuck about you. Because if you're asshole enough to voice this opinion to your "friends" you're broken inside. I don't want to deal with you anyway.
And fuck the "friends" that tell me their "friends" don't like me.
I remember there was this one asshole girl (who was a friend, but also mad insecure running her mouth about everyone) who was like I heard some bad things about you Kristy, and they were so mean *fake concerned laugh* they were so mean...
And because I had no self-confidence, it sent my stomach spinning imaging what people are saying about me--the worst things I could think about myself...shit did other people thing it too? Notice it too? Fuck! And so I tried to play it cool but then I nagged her and nagged her trying to guess who it was while she just shook her head like the martyr she pretended to be...I fell right into her trap.
But now, I don't care. I'm short, so what? I'm Asian, so what? I have a high, soft, voice, so what? I'm an awkward weirdo, so what? If I'm trying, or if it's not anything I can change, I don't give a fuck what you think.
That's not to say an insult doesn't sting. Of course my feelings are still hurt if you say any I'm socially awkward, my face messed up. But I'm able to recognize that my feelings are hurt, and let it wash it over me, and know that the insulter is more fucked up than the insultee, and that this too soon shall pass.
Wednesday, February 11, 2015
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